Something really terrible happened to me last night. Right after I posted about getting roses. I have isolated a lot today, I even surprised myself. I have been curled into a little ball for the last 18 or so hours, just wishing for nothingness.

I am sorry. I know it is unusual for me to post this sort of thing. I am surprised I am even on-line.

It feels as though months of hard work have been stripped from me. My tiny bit of self-worth has been stripped clean away with a few words.

I feel like nothing. I feel lower than low. I just want to hide. I feel good for absolutely nothing. I feel worthless. And all that from a few words.

I hate me right now.

And I am sorry for that.