Should I talk to her or not? I am confused about what to do. Will this just pass without me bringing it up? Will I be able to get over it by myself? Will it do more harm than good? Am I just looking for something to sabotage my therapy so that she will terminate me? She has said this to me before. She says that I look for things that may make people reject me. Kinda like I can say, "See, I told you that you would leave me!"

Maybe I am making all of this up? Maybe I was triggered by the article on EroticTransference? For some reason, anything that comes up about my therapist that I interpret as a boundary crossing, I go balistic! When I found a picture of her and her family, I had a nervous breakdown thinking she would terminate me. When I realized that we had a mutual friend I went into a total state of panic. Then I found her address and thought for sure that was the end of the world.

Now that all this erotic transference has hit the fan, I feel like I have commited a crime and need to be locked up in jail. I mean that. I go to the EXTREME when it comes to my therapist. Why? Why do I fear crossing that boundary so much? What am I really afraid of? Logically, I know this is over the top and my reactions are not normal. But why do I do this? I don't know if I could take it if something else happened that I may feel crosses a boundary.

OMGoodness! If I happened to end up at the same store or location she was at the same time, I would think she might wonder if I was stalking her. I may just faint dead away right there! This is pure insanity. I need to go to my room and never come out! I need some serious help.