I have anxiety attacks whenever I have to be in front of groups of people, whether I know them or not. I do alright when there are just 2-3 people, but anymore than that and I start to panic: my heart races, I start shaking, I stutter more than normal. I don't like being the center of attention at all. I always feel that someone in the group (or everyone) is talking about me or laughing at me when I'm not looking. I don't take negative criticism very well to begin with, so imagining people making fun of me just makes me want to cry. Somehow I manage to hold myself together long enough to get through whatever it is.

I really hate this part about myself because I always daydream about being this person who changes history in some way or another. I've tried voluntarily getting in front of crowds, but the moment that I see their faces and everyone is quiet, the attack begins. I've tried staring at a spot on the wall, imagining people in their underpants, but nothing seems to work.