If you want to articulate what's been going on for you, I'm all ears. You mention depression as your primary bete noire; are you reluctant to post on that forum or is there something more specific to being male that makes you look to this forum to share? I gather that you posted here precisely because you were directing your remarks at other similarly well-situated white guys and wanted some feedback on the specific issue of how the culture of the stiff upper lip renders us inarticulate when it comes to expression of feelings. Obviously we have them (in abundance) and obviously they can be just as damaging to us as any other segment of the population. But certainly, we don't have to be Einsteins to look around and see how much better off we are than 90% of the population. I know that this is enough of a deterrent for me, to not only repress those feelings (of inadequacy/guilt/blackness, etc.) but to bury them and effectively remain a mute about anything personal in nature.

I'm just spitballing here but if you're more specific, I can be of more use to you. Again, this is a fine topic.