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Old Mar 06, 2012, 08:36 AM
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Precious, I think I know exactly how you feel. I saw my therapist for 9 years and in year 9 saw a glimmer of success (with me biting, screaming and kicking against it the whole way because I did not like the method :-) but had to terminate because I was moving too far away. It was another 9 years before I had a crisis that drove me to call my therapist again and start again and in this second 9 years (years 18-27 :-) I had wonderful success.

I do not know what your problems are but I would recommend you set up your own "experiment" with working on one of them in a "practical" way? Say you do not have friends. Make up a plan to make more friends and then start it and discuss how you feel and what problems you are having, etc. Learn about yourself (if you do stuff, wimp out of doing stuff, make excuses, etc.) and follow the feelings "back" to where they originate. One only has words and talking in therapy but there has to be "action" too, something to talk about or things just circle endlessly in one's head? I'm sure your T won't let you talk about other people (like at work and how "they" treat you) so make your own action, pick a problem you have and make it practical and then try to solve it that way and the feelings will probably lead you to interesting stuff.

Another thing you might try is if you can practice remembering and working with your dreams; mine helped me enormously both in learning to like myself (I fell jumping over the stepping stones across the water but I did not fall in! WooHoo! :-) and in identifying problems and how to work on them "easier" and navigate through my un/subconscious.
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