ive struggled with regular relapese on and off for 12 years. ive had some lengthy perios of sobriety but then that feeling of discomfort and discontent creeeps back in and i stop going to meetings and talking to my sponsor and interacting with people and isolating. nest thing i know im at a liquor store in the last months it seems when i drink i break out in hand cuffs . the law and i do not agree on a lot of things and because im in the ststem alreadsy they just decdided to take me in and charge me also my ex is in the system with my address listed still and he is inthe system so that doess not help at all and they assume two birds of a feather...i have a lot of charges...obviously drinking is NOT working and recently comitted to stop again but am really upset with myself at this thime because i had 3 years and really put my self in a pot of hot water! I know i need to change one day at a dime its just im really overwhelmed. i accept full responsibility for my actions and do not try to play the victim in any of this because i choose my actions myself. i just have to hold my head high and accept my punishment as it comes even all the destruction i did my land me in jail for up to a year! This disease is a real cunning one!!!