I feel sad. I feel I am going to be persecuted. I feel I'm innocent of a capital crime. I mis speak sometimes, but never with malicious intent. Some times I may become suspicious about someones intentions, but never with deadly force. I just inquire for more info. I feel I'm mal adapted to this world these days. I feel I need to accept this and adapt. If I feel shame or guilt or both, about this, it will not change my perceived situation. I am glad I am adapted enough to work and be supportive of some, anyway. I need to accept I, most likely, will not receive the support I crave. It is difficult to let go of this "need." I can only try.