I guess I keep apologizing for still being a nutcase. I apologize when I repeat old stories. I apologize when I ask for extra sessions. I apologize when my emotions get the best of me. I apologize that it's taking me so long to learn what she's trying to teach. I apologize for being disgusting. I apologize for calling her. I apologize for texting her. I apologize that I'm still seeing her 15 months later. I apologize for being whiney and self-indulgent. I apologize for being stupid. I apologize for depending on her too much. I apologize and apologize and apologize.

And my therapist keeps trying to reassure me that I don't have anything to apologize for but I can't help it.

Any suggestions?