You know what, granite? She WILL be horrified. She will be horrified on your behalf. She will NOT be horrified by you. She will not be repulsed by you. She won't.

Telling is traumatic. You will second guess yourself after you tell. Those are just unfortunate facts. You will initially feel worse. You will second guess your decision to tell. HOWEVER, your T will be there to support you and so will the PC community. The people here are amazing. Telling people here and telling my T about what happened to me when I was little was so very difficult. Telling why I thought it was my fault was so SO much worse. Not one person, NOT ONE, has judged me or made me regret finally telling. You were so supportive when I was taking those first tentative steps. You know that you were not lying to me when you said it wasn't MY fault, right? It wasn't yours either. And now, months into it, I feel better. I. FEEL. BETTER.

Someday, I hope to finally feel clean. Whole. In order to get to that place, we have to slough through the difficult task of pulling the horrible stuff inside out into the light of day. To actually look at it. See that the shame we have attached to it does not belong to us. It DOES NOT BELONG TO US, Granite. Let your T see, and start the process with me.