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Originally Posted by suzzie
(granite---does this make you feel she is not intrested at all)no. she keeps backing off because she can see i cant handle it. and she doesnt want to push too much. she told me this. im too afraid of this stuff. and she said she being very careful. i wonder about the feelings around it too. they seem huge. hope you will be able to tell your t a small bit.  |
i feeling i have feel way to huge and unmangable and i don't know if my T knows how to help me manage them either.i have a hard time a lot and i keep most stuff hidden in a foggy part of my mind surounded by lots of other thoughts and totally filtered so i can function does that make any sence to you.and when i try to talk about it i just cant do it nothing comes out of my mouth.sometimes i try when my T asks me about something but it doesnt always work.i not to long ago i was able to tell her about the mother beating me and breaking wooden spoons on me (long story)but in the end it set off a huge reaction and now im not working and basically hiding in my house exsept for shopping and i went to my sons graduation.i know there was a lot more to it but basically i cant seem to tell her when these things happen and it isn't good.sorry for rambling i'm sure none of this makes any sence i'm sorry