i am scared about tomorrow.if i don't talk what will she do.i have been working really hard at trying to talk every sesssion.i feel i owe her this for changing my day .so i talk about small things and it seems ok.i want to say to her ,you know eventually i am going to screw this all up and please don't believe this is all ok because it isn't and i am a bomb ready to go off and you wont know what hit you.I'M SCARED

i'm terrified of expectations. if i don't talk at all she can't be mad when i can't answer her or talk to her about stuff.