want to sit in for me in my next session? T2 would never notice the difference....

seriously; part of it isn't true (whiney, self indulgent, disgusting, etc; you are not). No need to apologize because it's IS NOT so.

but some of it IS so; you DO wish you were done, or weren't dependent, or learned faster, or never let your control slip, & showed your emotions to her. It's all true. No need to apologize there because it just IS; it can't be helped. It's the process; T didn't invent it, you can't evade it. (I almost said can't escape it, but escaping is one thing, dodging is another.)

so between what ain't, and what is but can't be helped, can you find a more peaceful place? many hugs to you, I have a black belt in apology myself.