I have a complete panic, anxiety, when I have to speak to a group of people. Especially people I don't know. not only getting in front of a group (for instance, public speaking event) but simply speaking with a group of people.

The moment I realize people are actually listening, and I am the focus of attention, that's it (the trigger), I fall apart. I feel ashamed, get embarrassed and start having a panic. I want to run away. Sometimes when I am talking to someone, even just the sound of my own voice bothers me (like I am wasting everyone's time with my breath and feelings/thoughts).

I just started therapy 3 months ago so I don't have any tips or tools to overcome this...but I can totally relate to what you are saying.