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Originally Posted by LydiaB
(May trigger)
I have this thing where I have parts who think of completely eccentric ways to repeat my abuse. I found one introject who always felt he had to physically harm me in order to control the emotional pain I felt. So if someone told me "You're ugly". That person hurt me emotionally, so this part would turn around and hurt me physically in order to control the pain.
So now I'm not sure if it's the same part, but people are like striking it up with guys and inviting them over to my place and I think it's because they want to repeat the sexual abuse. When I would have no control, just sitting by as a spectator. Just like I had no control in the past. It would be like being raped all over again. I don't want to start down this path. It doesn't seem healthy at all. Has this ever happened to anyone?
I don't know what to do... I start with my new T on thursday, but it's not exactly the first thing I'm going to bring up.
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you just completed an intensive inpatient program for DID right. So what did your treatment providers at the inpatient program for DID say to do about that introject and any future ones like it when this happens to you..
do what ever they told you to do about this.
my suggesting otherwise may go against what ever treatment the inpatient program put you on and could possibly cause you to lose that stability and progress you made during inpatient.
all the inpatient programs I know also have a transition process where they give you numbers and contact people you can call to help you adjust to out patient care and deal with any issues that may come up while transferring to your out patient treatment team... give them a call.
If they neglected to do a transition process with you call the psychiatrist, therapist that you saw while inpatient. tell them whats going on and when your appointment is with your new treatment provider and you need a bit of help to get from now until then. they can give you ideas of what to do that wont go against the individual treatment plan you received while inpatient so that you will not lose the stability and progress you gained during inpatient.