Old thread is old, but I had to post~

Being alone is difficult for me. But only every once in a while or for a prolonged period (longer than a day,) I become very scared. I begin panicking. I start crying and begging people to talk to me (online or on the phone.) I will call up anyone I can and try to make plans to go out.

When I first started my relationship with my current boyfriend, when he would leave for work or to go home, right when he would walk out the door, I'd start SOBBING and panicking. I'd cry so hard that I could hardly breathe and I would throw up. This happened for a long time.

I hate being alone, but every so often I like a few hours alone in the house to turn up the music and relax.

When I am alone, I listen to music ALWAYS. If I am feeling that sadness and fright, I get online and talk to people. It's a temporary treatment for a few hours. Glad to know I am not the only one.