I'm still needy. It is embarassing but thankfully, I've got no one to impress. I'll never be impressive again, but I'm ok with that. I found when I had success in the past, it led to more troubles than the success was worth. People became mean and jealous. They would make cruel and heartless jokes. I prefer, now, being on the near bottom rung of america.. I wouldn't survive the upper or middle classes. They seem to hate people like me, whatever that means. So my life is based on survival, that works for me. I can't survive anywhere but near or at the bottom of our society.