You're very welcome. I also have many masks. It gets very exhausting having to wear all those masks and to keep yourself so rigidly bound just so you don't give yourself away and alienate or scare people. With no one IRL knowing...that's a huge burden for you to carry. I'm lucky enough to have one person IRL that is somewhat 'okay' with me. I wish someone immediately accessible were there for you, but maybe online is of some help, even while not being optimal?

Letting people in is so hard, isn't it? Positively dangerous for us when they can wreak such destruction inside of us without even having a clue.