Exactly! Exactly!
And it's not that I can't trust them, or idk,maybe I can't. It's not even such a big deal, like earthshattering or anything.

I can't admit that the end of my relationship is tearing me apart... Not even to me, I refuse to cry.

It's just getting very heavy over here... My friends I see daily think I wanted it to end, some of my family and friends (who I don't see often) thinks we're madly inlove... I just can't deal,not right now, and Idk why I can't just be honest to everyone, including myself

I think/believe he realised he can't fix me, and now he's hiding in his man cave. 1 day he texts saying he misses me, he wants to see me. The next day, silence. It's over for real this time, I know it and I just HAVE to be ok with it...