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Originally Posted by spydermonkey
This is amazing. One of my biggest paradigm shifts involved learning that pointlessness does not have to equal negativity. If everything is pointless and useless and meaningless, why not do whatever the eff you want!? It's total freedom.
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I understand what you mean. I had a point in the interim of the emotions and thoughts hanging behind this where I though, “Well, what's the point of not doing whatever the hell I want; If I’m pissed enough, what does it matter if I were to kill someone? I may as well, what’s the point in holding back” But I would empathize for the parents/relatives/friends of said person who grieved afterwards. All it would be is perhaps an animalistic instinct relieved, but this train of thought has passed and society also presents us a consequence whether or not the action truly is meaningful.
If I were to become so enraged (and I can’t imagine actually reaching this point having been so inhibited the majority of my life) that I actually did have the true physical desire to kill someone, I would either have to take up a life of running and hiding, or face what I had done in prison after the fact. Neither is a scenario that I would particularly enjoy living, at present much less so than living with whatever person caused me to feel such rage against them. Thus, in Not killing them, I Am doing whatever I want. Because I do not want to go to jail. If the laws of the land did not prosecute a person for such actions and we lived in a more tribal society, where life holds less significance to the populace and we could take another person’s life over a dispute and it would be settled, I would have much fewer qualms about it and would be more likely kill said person.