That's it! I feel bad that I'm umanageable, I know logically that it's better for him to leave, that I'm EXTREEMELY difficult to wrap his head around. I want him to be happy. But no amount of saying I'm ok with it makes me ok. My friends would never get it, to them I'm normal, just a bit volatile. They don't understand that he's the victim of my delusions and distorted thinking coz they never witness it.
Really feels good that you understand