Thanks stumpy, I see what your saying I view my life as not really worth it but when I see others like me I have hope for them and I know they could beat their depression. I have no hope for myself and that's ok with me.

But RiverJ I was forced into hospitalization and the experience changed my life. I was in heaven, I was surrounded by so many nice doctors and nurses. It was the first time in my life where I felt I belonged, because in the real world everybody is normal but when you're in there you are normal. If feel like you're alone trust me going to the hospital would really fix you. Your having a bad time in your life they just want to help you become happy again.

Your experience may not be as good mine because I was at a really good hospital in New York. It doesn't hurt to try, you don't have to be suicidal or violent towards others. Try it !

You might think you don't need it but in the end it's worth it.