Hello,
For the last 10 years I’ve been having problems with my emotions & moods. I unfortunately lost my dad due to an overdose (Suicide) and ever since I’ve not been right. I don’t like talking/thinking too much about my moods.
So my moods consist from sudden rage of anger, sadness & guilt. Not to forget paranoia of course. I used to be enjoy doing sports, I could/would go outside every day and play football or basketball for about 4 hours. I used to go out and do things and be with my friends. Now I just would rather sit in bed and watch Tv

People find me strange because of attitude towards life. I simply do not care if I live or die. I stopped caring when my Dad passed away. I always think “What’s the point?” I have a girlfriend, so she’s my reason to live. Other than that, I don’t know any other reasons to live. I could say something really funny (People obviously find it funny) I would keep a straight face and they would be laughing. I seem to of lost my sense of humor. Everything is just so doom and gloom for me.

My moods are rather unpredictable really. I can be fine one second, and then slowly change, and when I have changed, it will be there for days. Then all over a sudden I’ll be something different. It’s taken me years to even consider taking herbal remedies from off the counter. I always say “Yeah... I’ll make an appointment with the doctor tomorrow.” Then tomorrow comes and I’ll feel fine so I’ll put it off and say “I’ll be fine” and then it goes on. I’ve had attempted many suicide attempts throughout my life. My dad was Bipolar, he had a rough birth which caused that. Any ideas what this could more or less be?