But we needed him around. My mom's boyfriend of 14 years finally decided to leave us last week. I had always thought that we would be so much better off with out him and on our own, but things are really difficult now. My mom, brother, and his girlfriend are all unemployed...He was supporting us. The man who used to force me to kiss him, and touch him. Used to scream at me and throw me around. The man who we all depended on so much left us. I don't know what this feeling is, and I can't really explain it. I don't feel happy like I should. I don't feel anything like I'm supposed to. Maybe it's a sense of abandonment, like when my alcoholic-drug addict-abusive-pathetic excuse of a man-father left us. I just can't make sense out of any of this. This whole situation just seems like it's going by in a blur and nothing feels real.