Useless is the correct adjective. That's how it feels,cos if he who was my best friend since HS can't put up with me, who can?
I always knew I'd end up alone. Even as a teenager, I never set my sights on marriage and happily ever after. I just knew, even without any bf experience, that I'd be way too much effort. I didn't even have any intention of marrying my daughter's dad. Not cos he was a sh!tty bf (and he WAS) but bcoz it didn't appeal to me,even when we were talking marriage. But then he came back into my life and gave me hope, and he didn't even mean to. Even seeing him for the 1st time in 5yrs, I just knew we still loved eachother. But it was never in the cards.Now the thought of being alone is gut wrenching. I'm REALLY glad that you've found someone you feel safe with. I wish you guys the best of luck and a lifetime of love and happiness