Ick I don't have much memory of writing this. I knew I wrote something on PC, but the content of it was unknown. Sorry if I triggered anyone. Obviously whoever wrote this isn't as sensitive as I am. I can't decide if I'm switching more now, or if I finally just have the ability to notice it more efficiently since being in the hospital.

AmandaLouise- Uhm nope, no follow up like that. This program is ranked top 5 post trauma units in any given year, I'm surprised they didn't think of something like that. I see my new therapist tomorrow. I kind of just plan on jumping in, I don't have time to beat around bushes. I don't think I was asking necessary like "what do I do"? But more like "does anyone relate"? I don't know that's my gut feeling.

BMee- I'm not really sure. I wish I knew...

LeafLace- I'm confused whether this is new to me or if I'm always like this, I just never had internal communication about it before and never knew of it. My system feels a little less constrained, because a lot of the protectors have backed off. I can't decide if that's good or bad.

DarkPurple- I know what you mean. I have a part that will get me put in restraints in hospitals and then leave. Repeat again. I developed protectors to stop this part that's more similar to your part, but the protectors are chilling out somewhere on some remote island without us. I hope that you're feeling better now. I'm sorry if this brought up bad feelings for you.