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Originally Posted by SoupDragon
This week part of me has wanted T to hurt me, in my "fantasy" it was physical, but I think T being really angry would have satisifed that bit of me too.
I didn't talk to T about it, one of the reasons being because I just found it so confusing and it seemed to come out of the blue. Just wondered if anyone else had experienced this?
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I have, Soup, and just this week. I'm in my third month with a new T, & it's beginning to get uncomfortable. I'm aware of that much. I can't fully connect with all of it yet. But I had a flash of his grabbing my arm as I was leaving yesterday, grabbing it in a hurtful way--& except for an occasional handshake, he's never touched me.
The really odd thing was that I think I welcomed it before it startled & disturbed me. Now I'm just trying to sort things out. I don't know yet whether I'll bring it up with T--won't see him for two weeks now.