I will if you do and then we can compare answers (no seriously, I know we are all responsible for ourselves and what we choose to raise)

It is odd because I do trust him - well my head does, maybe there are some other layers there that haven't been unearthed yet.

I have wondered whether somewhere in my brain something is trying to recreate previous relationships (not that I can recall ever being hit), but one of passivity.

Or whether it would give me an excuse to terminate.

I am just not sure