Hi,

It's not normal to fantasize about children. However, I don't know that it's particularly problematic or unhealthy as long as it's not a preferred fantasy that gets in the way of fulfilling sexual relationships with adults.

Is it sick? I would say so, but this is my value judgement and you don't have to share it. Are you a pedophile? Not unless you prefer children to adults. There are a class of people who have pedophilic fantasies but never act on these, neither do they prefer these fantasies to normal sexual themes. You sound like you could be one such person.

I suggest you get evaluated by a psychologist. Don't worry, you're not going to be sent off to prison or anything. In case you are having urges to act out there may be medications or other therapies that can suppress them.

Just remember - don't blame yourself for your disorders. Most genuine pedophiles hate themselves from what I have seen and that's got to be a horrible burden without a doubt.