Oh, then you really need to find a therapist or pdoc that can diagnose you. You really deserve to do this for yourself. Hey, pretty much everyone here has done that. I did that myself and I was diagnosed with PTSD. Gee, if I didn't do that and have therapy I would really be in bad shape.

I am sure that losing your father that way was and is very hard on you, it would be for anyone and leaves many different questions. You need to find a good therapist that you can talk to about this because you're still struggling with this.

Really, whatever you do, get on the net or even call your regular doctor and find a therapist. You probably should get a check up with your GP to make sure your not dealing with a physical issue as well. You don't deserve to live and feel this way, you CAN get better with help and even put your mind at ease.

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