So I just came back from seeing T. And I feel somewhat unsafe. I guess this is the first time we actually talked about something somewhat significant. I didn't even think it was gonna be an issue until she started asking specific questions and I froze. I was fine talking about generalities.

I feel exposed, like I have been cut open or something. And on one level I understand that everything I say is confidential and stuff. But it still doesn't make it seem any safer.

I feel mad that I let my guard down. That I didn't put up more of a fight. Like I surrendered somehow. Granted I didn't tell her all that much and it did take me like 15min each to answer her 2 questions, but still. I know it's T's job to help me process things but I'm left with this uneasy feeling now.

I know this must sound strange but I can't explain it any better. I'm not sure if I should email T or just wait and sit with it till next weeks session.