I am slowly losing it. my job gets worse day by day everyone just piles on more and more and I can't keep up no matter how hard I try ....giving up though can't win and now they just complain and conspire to make me myserable these same people who worshipped me for a long time as I worked 30-40 hours ot every two weeks floating the whole damn place by.

My bills just add up more and more each day and no matter what I do it gets worse... he can't find a job after 2 years out here because I was stupid enough to move out here (he had a good one back east).... My daughters really nice though she is pretty and really smart for two.
my damn house is falling apart though and don't no how long till I can't pay the mortage.......... I now sleep in 2 three hours more than I should been late alot lately (past 3 weeks) can't be bothered to get up I guess but I am not lazy my life just sucks so bad I can't stand to face it and getting up just means letting someone down I am really good at that.... my husband is probably gonna leave (only a matter of time) he complains constantly about a lack of sex but I can't have sex I have no interest in it what so ever. i go nowhere now except work and home don't wanna and couldn't afford it anyway. I have no appetite anymore but I force myself to eat something usually once a day but at least i lost the baby weight or at least that's what i've been told...I really don't no how to fix anything and I am at my wits end I can't do this anymore I tried to talk to my spouse but he just says yeah everything sucks or big deal they have pills for that.

sorry to rant like a lunatic I just wanted to het it out it's been all bottled up thought it would clear my head but it doesn't this is the worse year ever the last few months are unbarible I enjoy a fewstolen happy moments literally usually thanks to my darling daughter and every thing else sucks how can life be so unfair why am I so pathetic Iruined all our lives.