Dear T,

Ok so, today was good. I'm over my paranoia now. If you did read that stuff, so be it. You're clearly strong enough not to let it affect our time together. I'm actually laughing about the whole thing now. It's kind of silly.

But yeah, today was just what I needed. Thank you. Thanks for letting us have this email connection and for "not going anywhere." You know my crazy fears of abandonment. Thanks for telling me you know I can get better. I've never actually believed anyone who told me that but I almost believe you.

I want to for real let you know how much I appreciate you and how I actually feel a tiny bit of hope now whereas before meeting you I had none. I want to say it without sounding like a loser. Why am I so afraid of how I sound to you? For that reason, I almost wish you WERE reading here!