Hi hopelessbc (welcome to PC btw)

This is just my general impression, but yes it does sound like depression. Have you spoken to a doctor about any of this? Or do you have a T (therapist)?

I'm sorry that your spouse isn't being supportive of you, sometimes those closest to us just don't/can't understand.

I'd HIGHLY reccommend going to a doctor as soon as possible, there are ways to change how you're currently feeling.

If you want to vent some more, you've found a really supportive environment in which to do it. Some of us have gone through what you are going through (or at least similar situations).

*HUGS* (If you want them)