I am SORRY!! -
((((((( HUGS ))))))) ~ ~ ~ ~ ((((((( HUGS )))))))
YES, there is medicine out there that can and will help you.... I used to feel the exact same way, for I have been mental (at least feeling like it) since I was around 12 years and I have been fighting that feeling for about 30 years now.... and now I can see the Sun shining again and the Beauty of the Rainbow is mine to hold.
If I may - do you find that these feelings of yours are more intense during your monthly cycle? When you become upset in the present? Do you have unresolved issues from your past? Are you presently seeking counseling for your wounds?
If not then you must work on all of the above before your Healing with return.
LoVe,
Rhapsody -