I had a stressful day. My wife needed to be admited to the hospital. I believe she is going to be alright. Our son is upset. I usually get his rage, and it seems to be getting ready to explode at me again. Sometimes I want to go far, far away. This is one of those times. I have had a lifetime of crisis followed by crisis by crisis again and again. I wonder what life would be like if I was nurtured. I honestly can't imagine.

I am clean. I know using would amplify the complicated situation I'm in. I am grateful I do not use because of this now. It would make things worse.