I can totally relate to what you're saying! I call what you're talking about as my "whirling around in a storm". Sometimes it feels as though I'm in the midst of a sandstorm--I can't think or see anything clearly. Sometimes I feel as though I'm in the midst of a wind storm--I can see things, but they are distorted and crazy, blowing around me and sending me into a spin of negativity. I've talked about it a lot with my therapist both in session and in emails. Sometimes I send her one or two emails after a particularly stressful session. She understands. She hears me. She is able to stay calm and steady in the midst of my "storm". In the past, the storms lead to me feeling as though I wasn't doing therapy "right" and made me feel as though I needed to quit . . . I still have those feelings, but over time I've learned that she will remain steady and I can just be who I am until the storm passes . . . and the storm always passes and we continue . .. Let her know what is going on.