Hiya,
I am sorry to burden people. I am struggling so much underneath. were sectioned/ hospitalised for 13 months and am in community nearly 6 months now. but had a urine and kidney infection which has battered me. my physical pain is subsiding, but now im so emotionally unstable i dont know what to do. alcohol has been a big prob but as a teenager before that i had eating disorders and have self harmed since being a child due to certain things that have happened as we we all have had ****.
I dont know whether i wanna live or die. ive got two children i lost parental responsibility to and its killing me. im 30 in 4 days and am scared, i feel like i dont want to get to that age and my self harm urges are so sky high. (well i still skin pick, make my self bleed and hardly eat/ vomit).
Im with a really decent guy met him 4 months ago and we havent been apart he understands my condition and doestn judge me. but i hate hurting him and dont mean to like i dont my kids and family/friends.
? does this condition have no boundaries?
Im awaiting to continue the second part of my psychotherapy in two weeks.
Ive missed a full week of appointments due to infection and didnt phone cause had no credit so am gunna get bollocked next week haha.x

Does anyone understand or unfortunately relate.xxx

love rhona.x