Welcome! I'm so glad you are taking action by getting on this site and now ordering books! That's a lot of progress already. I may be dreaming, but is it possible that some kind of rehab office would help place you in a job for which you are qualified and just give a waive or probationary period for the offenses that may have been a result of your health? OK. I know. Maybe that's too optimistic. But if you have a phone book, you could glance through City of or Government and see if anything sounds possible? Hugs!