Just wondering if anyone else has experienced wanting t to push them harder in sessions?

When I got home from my session tonight, I journaled intensely for about an hour and broke through some walls during writing. I came to the conclusion that I want t to push me to push through the "stuck feelings" I feel I am having in sessions. I want to have that kind of break through in session rather than an hour later when I am at home alone.

I know this sounds completely crazy since last session I was very down about being pushed hard and didn't even want to go back. But when I had that break through with journal writing tonight, I realized just how badly I want to get through these walls and work through these feelings with the support of t. Does this make any sense? Can I ask t to push harder? It feels odd to ask for that. I am afraid if I do ask I will regret it if t does push harder and then I feel horrible afterward.