That's really difficult news. You should definitely see a doctor if you haven't already, since you don't know for certain what it is. I just did a quick search on Peyronie's disease and it seems to usually affect men much older than you. Even if you are right about the diagnosis, surgery may be a better option than leaving it untreated. Also it might be something else that needs to get treated.
But just facing the possibility of a life without sex must be crushing, just when it seems your adult life is just starting out. People normally do eventually adapt to all kinds physiological problems, but that doesn't really help you much right now.
I've definitely felt like life was over a few times when I suffered serious setbacks. But it wasn't over. It kept going and I adapted. It seems like your life is over right now because all your plans for the future may have to change, but the fact is your life is not over and you will adapt.
You have no idea what your future will bring. It may sound sickeningly pollyanna-ish or new age-y, but you have no idea what new doors this may open for you. Crushing defeat may lead to overwhelming victory.
Another thing to think about is the incredible variety of human sexual experience. People have sex in many different ways besides just vaginal intercourse.
It's bad right now, but things will get better. Hang in there.
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Originally Posted by 23andlost
I feel alone, depressed, angry and hopeless and I dont see a possibility of me leading a happy life. I feel like every day is a struggle for me to survive. Just am fighting my unhappiness and going through the motions of yet another day.
Im 23 and alone. Ive not had a friend in 4 years. I am socially akward and I have acne which makes me not want to be around people even more since I hate how I look. Once I got to college I just sort of stopped trying to make friends with people, and I ve pretty much been a loner ever since.
In regards to my history with the opposite sex, it is also pathetic. Ive kissed a girl a handful of times, and the one time I had sex I discovered that sex might always be painful or nearly impossible for me. This has made my depression much worse, because I feel worthless and that no woman will ever want to be with me.
To be more specific I have a significant curve in my penis to the left and have had it for as long as I remember. Erections were always occasionally painful, but when I tried having sex it became so painful that I had to stop. The most pleasurable experience in life causes me pain and humiliation.
ON top of this my condition as gotten worse, to the point where an erection at the moment and for the past month is impossible for me because of the pain. I most likely have peyronie's disease which there is no real cure for. All I can do now is wait and hope it gets better by itself, which doesn't seem likely. If that happens I could try some risky surgeries that could make me unable to ahve an erection or lose all sense of feeling in my penis.
So yea, I feel like a worthless person. I fell broken and hopeless. Ive started seeing a therapist and started a group session for social anxiety, but I dont even think those will help me much when theres real physical parts of that will never be normal. How I am supposed to get over this. I am 23 but my life feels over already. Its a very likely scenario that I will never be able to have sex and I will be alone because of it. Ive been crying every night thinking about this and I find it hard to want to keep living. I wish I was dead pretty much every night so I dont have to face this pain and humiliation that is my life.
So thats my pathetic story.  |