I dont know what I am getting out of this relationship, I am supposed to be learning to build trust and have a healthy relationship for the first time with a man. I hate men! and I really dislike the way his eye twitches sometimes. He is judging me im pretty sure of it and That makes me angry and close up. I honestly wanted help. I was open and honest. But I feel like a pay check... and now Im not sure going will do me any good.. I dont know if I could allow him in my bubble.... hmm