I think everyone in a rural place is probably driving 20 minutes to get to a meeting. Believe me, this is a small price to pay. On the website there should be a number to call; you should talk to someone in your area, which should eliminate the confusion. Trust me, there are as many reasons to not go to a meeting as there are to go-and I'm sure you will think of all of them. At my local meeting, occasionally people bring children, even small ones so as an interim measure, I would just put that out there as an option if there are no sitters available; it is not the best option however. I think once you start going, you'll find people there with similar situations who can help you out. It's a nice fellowship and I hope you stay determined to go. If you are seeking help, it's because you need it; no one goes to a therapist to pass the time, right? Best of luck to you.