Hi

I agree with Billi too!! And you seem very mature for your age and also a good writer of English. As with Billi I have PTSD too and you just can't 'snap out of it' or 'get over it'. It takes years to get over, some never do. It's the same as the Vietnam veterans who returned from Vietnam after 1975, they have PTSD and still experience fears of being shot etc. Through therapy and externalising the feelings will you learn to overcome the trauma. But first start by seeing a therapist, but I don't know how it works with you right now since your still a minor.