Yes, I meant ask the hard questions until you get an answer.

After I slept on what I posted, I realized part of my wanting t to push harder is so she could actually witness the breakthrough. But the more I thought about it the more I realized that is my people pleasing issues coming through. For some reason I want her to see the progress as it happens - I felt like she needs fulfillment from seeing the progress in person. But the goal is the progress and the breakthroughs, not her seeing them. It doesn't matter if they happen in a session or in-between sessions. The point is that I pushed through one of those walls and I am better for it. I finally understand what it means for therapy to be about working on being a better me.

That said, I still want t to keep pushing me in sessions. I don't want to lose momentum. I want to keep moving forward. I've been stuck for far too long.