Yes it is more a memory then a flashback. How come suddenly I remember this. When I remembered this yesterday, it surprised me so much that I didn't knew what to called it or what to do with it, I just had to write it down, it was like I was holding it in my hands and I didn't knew what I should do with this. I rarely remember something from my childhood. Very very rarely and when I do its just very small bit, so small that I'm not even sure if these bits ever had happened.

I still don't know what to do with this today. It's so very clear, so present. It's the first thing that was on my mind when I woke up this morning. But there is a strange thing about this memory, I don't know how the little girl felt. She didn't say a word, didn't cry, didn't reacted, she just kept silent, keeping her emotions inside. At 6 years old she was already used to not show emotions, to keep her feelings inside. I can see this memory very clear but the feelings that the little girl felt are still blocked.

" Do not tell anyone". How many of these things I didn't told anyone.

Thank you for listening to me. I don't know how I feel. I just know I must not stay in that memory.

Thank you!