Dear T,

Last appointment you shared with me somethings you would like to see from me, before we start spacing out my appointments. You want me to accept me, to accept myself the way I am.. Flaws and all. It doesn't mean that I can't work on things, and get better. But, that I don't beat myself up for having problems. At first, I found knowing that as a good thing. Now, I am just daunted by that task. The truth is.. I don't think I have ever been happy with myself, ever accepted myself the way I am. Never been happy with myself. And... I don't think I ever will be. Some how, it seems counter productive.. shouldn't we all strive to be better? Don't we always have something to work on? I am sooo confused now. I suppose we have a heck of a lot of work to do. The only thing I ask, please don't leave me in the process.

Healed.