I want him to read it ahead of time so I walk in knowing he knows and still wants to see me. And I don't have to sit there in gut wrenching anxiety watching him read it.

And thanks for that advice Perna. I should do that, but can't seem to make myself yet. I'm not on any medications at all right now, except for a medication for migraines that I just started yesterday. Trying to avoid taking it at work because it seems to make me groggy.