OK, you are thinking about doing something that ends the pain. But you must remember that what you are considering is a PERMANENT solution to a TEMPORARY problem.

Let that sink in for now.

My twenties were a nightmare. I was confused, unloved, lost, lonely, wondering where I went wrong, had a family who made me feel like a loser, etc.

So I moved away. Far away to a different place with different people. Believe it or not, it worked. My thirties were hilarious. Full of fun, romance and adventure. Because I didn't have a telephone, and couldn't listen to the criticism. You would be surprised what a difference THAT makes. I mean I DELIBERATELY did not have a telephone. And when I had a boyfriend, my family knew nothing. I told them nothing. I realized that every time I told them something, I gave them an opportunity to "get" me. So that all ended.

By the time I did get a telephone, they had developed a new appreciation for me, because I wasn't there and available, so they transferred their criticism to some other poor family member.

This is all I can offer you. My personal experience. You have the power to act. Get up and start exercising to get your blood circulating. Get your body moving so you can start making plans to change your life. Obviously, whatever you're doing now isn't working. So do something else. Completely and totally different.

Best wishes and good luck.

Choices, it's all about choices.