granite, you deleted your post? It wasn't too much for us, but maybe for you it was. I'm sorry everything is so muddled in your mind and that you reacted internally, at leasst, to everything your T said. It's okay to blurt stuff out or not finish sentences. Often I start a sentence and don't finish. Therapy is hard.

I know you want to tell your T a lot but being inside of you for so long, it's not going to come out coherently, and that's OKAY!!! You're doing fine; it's going to take time, as my T always tells me.

I also wish you had shown your T your drawings. Maybe next week you will. In therapy, we take steps forward and steps backwards or we stay at a plateau for a while. You've taken GIANT steps forward so there's no way you're going to go backwards to the beginning. In time, it will all get straightened out.