Just wanted you tn know I relate, also with the contradictary thingy. What counts in my favour is that I'm very self aware and introspective. Sometimes I have a habit of shoving feelings I just can't deal with atm but that hardly ever ends well, by the time I question it, I'm all over the place. A clear emotion that comes easy is anger tho, but upon reflection I realize that I'm actually hurt or scared and anger's just easier to deal with. I'm into omission right now coz confusing people frustrate me...